Well Ladies.. this is not a “syndrome” that you will find listed under a “name your psychological disorder” in a Google search, but, I have been afflicted with this little nagging issue..oh, for quite some time. So let’s see if you relate, or am I certifiable? This is how my “hotness” afflicts me, it goes a little something like this; I powerfully decide that it is time to cleanse my body of all impurities, lose the last little post baby pudge off my belly and ass, (she is 5 by the way). The loss of this pudge seems to represent a foolhardy belief that it’s exit will increase my self esteem and double my net worth within all the realms of my life. So, I embark on my cleanse, eating bright green leafy shakes, get my boody to the gym, hit a yoga class, oh, what the hell climb a mountain…ohh, and swallow those vitamins, oooh, only protein past 7:00, hit the gym, extra lunges for the ass lift, I LOVE THIS. I feel fantastic, healthy, beautiful, and truly on the door of goddessness. This continues diligently for at least 2 weeks. OH….then all of a sudden I wake one morning, looking ohhh so good, I look in the mirror, stick out the bosom and the ass, arch the back…Wow, I look fantastic, I look so HOT! OHHH SHITTT.. HOT CHIC Syndrome has set in. I now think I look so dam good, that I eat whatever I want that day, skip the workout, call the BFF, we celebrate with wine and fat/carb laden goodies, chased by chocolate and more wine. The result.. wow, the next morning, hmmmm, seems that HCS, has struck again. OK, so it is not the end of the world. I can climb back on the horse. A good time was had. I am happy. I celebrated. What’s the big deal? Well, I let myself down, again, I told myself a lie…I know the pattern, I saw the signs, yet chose to engage in “settling” for “I am so hot”..vs.. “I am so healthy, fulfilled, and dam it feels good to finally hit the goal!” Ultimately I chose pleasure over happiness..(another blog topic to come).
SO WHAT? My wrestle with HCS is merely a form of self sabotage that keeps me in a space of average as opposed to the true fulfillment of the goal and removes the joy I experience in the journey to get there, also bringing into question..How committed was I really to the goal? Why do I want the goal in the first place?
SO WHAT WHAT? Questions to ponder… How fully committed are you to that goal that you have not yet achieved in spite of numerous attempts? What’s the truth about the situation that continues to replay? Why do you really want what you are seeking? When is it time to change the goal and create a new contract with yourself?
HMM, gotta go, green shake and Pilates waiting!
If this speaks to you or you relate, please continue the conversation below. Would love to hear all about your HotNess HotStuff!