Just in time for Halloween a little chatter about the “monster” within!
There is a warrior that lives in me, she occasionally comes out to play. I am sure her creation is from an evolutionary process that allows me to protect my young from an attacking mob or clan of wolves. But, dammit, she shows up at the most inappropriate of times, like in meetings when it seems I am being put on the defensive, someone challenges my vision, disagrees with my rationalizations, attempts to control me, or when my husband fails to acknowledge valentines day, or anyone launches a (by my limited perception) any kind of perceived attack. Getting control of this one is in the forefront of my personal mastery, as sometimes I like her, she is sort of sexy! That said, she has proved to be quite detrimental to the continuity of many relationship.
Oh, did I mention, I believe that she is the side of me likes to consume overly generous pores of expensive wine, flirt inappropriately to get what she wants, and desires chocolate and carbohydrates as a form of comfort, well at least that is who I am deciding to blame for these traits.
The acknowledgement of her existence is not a ploy to avoid responsibility for many less than desirable actions on my part. In fact it is quite the opposite, seeing her in all her illustrious artful beauty, allows me to own, make peace and guide her to a place of grace and deep sleep. She would prefer never to be seen as she is truly only supposed to come out in the dark of night when true threat presents itself. But, this great life,.. that I embrace and choose, inching toward adrenal fatigue with copious amounts of stress does not allow her to fully reach a restful REM, so she hovers in a state of purgatory with the ability to be roused at the most inappropriate of times. So, what to do… embrace her, coddle her, ensure that I am speaking my truth, have grace in the fact that not everyone has to agree or like what I have to say, acceptance of myself is what is important, leave the room when the energy is less than palatable, ensure I give the love I want to receive, and sooth her to a calm.
The SO WHAT? What value should you get from my babble… play the affirmation game below!
“To truly move into a place of authenticity I have to come to acceptance about all the parts of myself that I may deem less than desirable. Make a choice to move forward into the existence I now choose to take possession of. Stop judging myself through the eyes of others. Take immediate responsibility for the life I have designed. I choose to move to a space of “joy”!”
ahhhh, now how does that feel? FREE
What does your warrior princess of self sabotage look like? Please continue the conversation below!